Warrior - Chapter One Hundred and Four

She loves me.

She actually, really does love me.

And I love her.

Standing under the streaming water of the shower, I couldn't help the stupid grin on my face.

After what happened last night... I can't remember the last time I felt like that - emotional and helpless. The most that I could do was try to soothe Khushi, but I couldn't take away the pain, neither hers nor mine. But when she told me that she loved me as I held her in my arms... the feeling is indescribable. There was just a mix of everything good, that there's no one word to describe it.

For the first time, leaving to work in the morning was hard. I had skipped my morning run and simply laid in bed with Khushi, holding her. She looked so comfortable that I didn't want to break her sleep by any chance. But by the time the clock rolled around and showed me that I really needed to get up so that I could go to work, I almost hated it. I wanted to skip work actually, but because of the two important meetings I had lined up, I couldn't avoid it; especially since one had already been rescheduled while the other was with an international client. The circumstances forced me to carefully slip away from Khushi and go to work.

But before I left her, I placed a kiss on her head, which made a small smile form on her lips, just like it did on mine. When I got downstairs and saw the others, truth be told, they all looked like shit, especially NK. 

I know Khushi had made me swear not to tell them, and I had done exactly that. But after seeing it all themselves last night, there was no other option. So I had explained it to them and I made them swear to not tell anyone else, especially her family. Mom at first asked to reconsider, but I reminded her that it's not our right to tell them, only Khushi's, which only then made her agree. As for NK, I told him to stop blaming himself because it wasn't his fault.

If it's anyone's fault, it's that monsters!

At work, when I wasn't busy with other things, I had Aman pull up any other information he could get on the creature. According to him, the monster was still on good behavior, which fucking pissed me off! There's still a few months till he reaches half-completion of his sentence, but when he gets to only one year remaining....

I won't let him out, I just won't!

But what can I actually do? At one point or another, his sentence will end and he will have to be let out. It's wrong of me to wish ill on someone, but when it comes to this monster, I can't help it! He reminds me of Dadaji in ways, and it makes me hate him even more.

The whole day felt like crap because of this shit, but as soon as I saw Khushi, it all went away. I felt so much better seeing the way she looked at me with love.

But the fact that she'd do something more... I wasn't expecting that. And then her, er, discovery, I....

I felt my cheeks heat as I remembered the shocked look on her face after she....

For fucks sake Raizada, you're talking about your own penis here, get it together!

However, when I recall the image of Khushi freeing it from my briefs and her face being filled with disbelief, I... fuck!

It's not like I was trying to hide it-! Okay maybe I was! It's not like our relationship had been anything like that prior, so why would I go telling her or showing her? That would've been outrageous! And in my defense, I have height on me so that's probably the scientific reason behind why she calls it a leviathan.

Of all things she could possibly say, how did she come up with the term 'leviathan' like that out of nowhere?

That's a good question, to which maybe one day I'll have an answer. But as of right now....

Truth be told, I thought... I thought that Khushi wasn't going to stop. Sure, she briefly did when she... learned of that, but... I mean the way she pointed at the bed and made me sit there and was kissing me and-!

Cool it... relax... nothing happened... calm down.

I must admit, because of all of that, I thought something was going to happen. I recall from our first date when Khushi had told me about a past relationship from high school, so there's no doubt of the experience she has, which is definitely more than what I even know. That being said, she obviously knows what she wants and how to do things. And with how things were going then... but then she stopped. Instead she just smiled at me, told me to go wash up, placed a kiss on my cheek, then let me go.

Why did she do that? Maybe the timing was wrong? Or maybe-?

For someone who's managed to abstain from sex and rarely think about, you sure are thinking about it a lot right now!

I'm not thinking of sex-

No, you're thinking why it didn't happen earlier - but you're still on the topic of sex.

Hmm... point taken. ...I'm acting like all the guys did back in high school and in college - maybe not as bad as them, but still.

I need to take my mind off of it before I put myself in an awkward position like last time and have to take care of it in the shower!

*~*

When I finally got out, I found Mom sitting next to Khushi.

"Oh there you are Chote," Mom smiled at me.

Had I not been looking carefully, I wouldn't have noticed how Khushi's eyes darted down along me before looking back up as she blew into the teacup she had in her hand.

Uh...?

"I was wondering what was taking you so long to come down and eat, but I also had tea ready, so I decided to come on up and give some to Khushi, as well as something to eat."

"Thanks Mama," Khushi smiled at her softly.

Mom smiled back at her caressing her cheek.

It really makes me happy that the two women I love the most, love each other as well.

"Are you coming down," Ma asked me.

"Yeah, I'll be down in a bit," I nodded.

"Okay," she smiled back, and she got up. "Could you do me a favor and bring the tray and stuff down with you when she's done?"

"Sure Ma," and she left the room, shutting the door behind her.

Bringing my attention back to Khushi, I found her looking at me as she sipped on her tea.

Why is she looking at me like that?

Turning away, I focused on moisturizing my skin, but even through the mirror, I could see her looking at me.

Did I do something?

Looking back at her, I saw Khushi place her cup down on the tray. 

"You can take this," she simply said.

What the! "You're done already?"

Khushi simply shrugged in return.

Uh... well that was quick.

Going over to the bed, I picked up the tray and glanced over at Khushi, who was looking at me already.

Why does she keep staring at me like that?

"Uh... I'll head downstairs then," and I quickly walked out of the room.

Did I do something for her to be looking at me like that? But what? Her face wasn't even giving anything away? I mean earlier she was the one to stop everything and made me- stop thinking about that!

I'm just overthinking it, that must be it.

*~*

I spent the rest of the day downstairs in order to avoid the weird stares from Khushi. The guys wanted to game a little, which meant being down in the basement and no chances of getting weird stares from Khushi.

So naturally, I agreed.

It definitely helped to keep my mind off of things, not to mention cheer NK up a bit. He's a good kid, even though he can be quite annoying, but it's safe to say that he won't be doing any staying-out-late-and-sneaking-in anytime soon.

We all stayed down here until it was time for dinner, and only then did we head up.

I hope Khushi won't do her staring thing here.

Except she wasn't at the table at all.

"She said she's still full from earlier and would only be wasting food," Mom explained.

Oh... okay. As long as she's eaten, then fine.

When dinner was complete, the others decided to stick around in the den for a bit, but I decided to call it a night and headed on upstairs.

I can't avoid Khushi forever just because of a few weird stares. That's just- "what the!"

Stepping into my room, I found the lights off and a bunch of candles lit all over the place.

Uh...

Closing and locking the door behind me, I carefully stepped into the room, looking around, only to then notice the bed covered with rose petals.

Now I'm even more confused. "Khushi-?"

I don't know when she got behind me, but suddenly Khushi's hands popped out of nowhere, moving through my arms and taking hold of my shoulders, and I felt her press her body against mine as she laid her head on my back.

What is she-?

Moving her hands away, I turned to her and instantly froze. Fucking hell, I even felt my cheeks flame up, being hotter than the many candles in the room, as soon as my eyes caught sight of Khushi in her silky black négligée.

A knot instantly formed in my throat and I tried to gulp it away. Only it felt as if my whole mouth had dried up!

Fuck!

She looks beautiful. She looks absolutely beautiful and...and...

Shit, my brain is starting to shut down!

Khushi reached up and wrapped her arms around my neck. "Cat got your tongue," she smirked.

Uh....

"Won't you care to make a compliment about how I look?"

"Uh... I-I... I-I...."

Dammit!

A small giggle escaped from Khushi's lips, and for whatever reason, it did something to me - made me feel something.

With her right hand, she used the back of her fingers and stroked my cheek. "You're blushing, Arnav."

If only I knew how to stop it!

"I like it."

What?

"I think it's cute."

Oh! Um... well-

"I think you're very cute. In fact, I think you're very handsome. You're so strong, and your tattoos are amazing, which makes you look sexy and totally badass! But there's also that small, polite smile of yours..."

She's mentioned that once before, but I had no idea what she was talking about - I still don't. Do I really give her a specific smile? Without even realizing it?

"...not to mention those beautiful chocolatey eyes of yours... and I want to melt in them."

Uh-

"Will you let me melt in them," and she brought her lips closer to my ear. "Will you give me what I need," and she nipped at my earlobe.

Fuck, why did that feel-?

She traced her tongue along where she had nipped me, before pulling back and looking at me innocently, as if she hadn't just done what she had.

I guess I wasn't wrong about her being a devil. "Yes," I breathed.

A smile spread across Khushi's lips, and she reached up to kiss me. It felt so foreign, even though she had already kissed me only a few hours ago, and yet still, it felt a bit familiar. And for someone who's not insecure, at the moment, I slightly am. No one other than Khushi has ever kissed me before, so.... But I think I know what to do? I've always been a fast learner so if I pay close attention... I think I've got it? I did that earlier.

When I started to respond, I felt Khushi press herself against me even more as she moaned against me.

Shit, did I just twitch down- I hope Khushi didn't feel that-!

Khushi pulled away and gazed up at me.

Fuck, did she-?

She brought her hands down, roaming it along my chest, until she reached the hem of my shirt. "Do you consent?"

It's happening. "I consent," I nodded.

A small smile played on her lips, and she pulled my shirt up, removing it and dropping it to the floor. Her eyes moved back down onto my body, looking it over, when her attention went to my right arm. As she watched her hand move over the tattoo of her, I couldn't help but to look at her.

To think that there was time that I was worried about her hating me for doing it, but now...

Now she loves it, just as she loves the rest of it.

Taking my hands into hers, she placed a kiss into the palm of my left hand, then placed a kiss on the palm of my right hand. 

"Tell me you love me," she murmured against it.

"I love you," I murmured back, without any hesitation.

"You'll never leave me, will you?"

"Not for as long as I live."

I could feel her smile against my hand before moving it up to her cheek, making me caress it. "You'll protect me forever?"

"Forever and always."

"I love you."

"I love you, too, Khushi."

Reaching back up, she kissed me once more, only this time, she somewhat pushed me back, forcing me to step back. She didn't stop, continuing to make me move back, when suddenly I felt the bed behind me. Before I could even think of anything, Khushi pushed me back and I went falling backwards landing on my back.

What the-?

But I couldn't finish the thought because Khushi crawled over me, straddling my waist.

Holy-!

"How much porn do you watch," she asked, tilting her head.

What-? She-! I-!

Dammit, my brain is really malfunctioning!

Khushi simply arched her brow at me, waiting.

Quick! Answer her but don't be dumb! "Uh... um... not a lot."

Way to be dumb!

"Do you remember when you last watched porn?"

Do I? I used to here and there before marriage since I had privacy but after... maybe once or twice, but never around Khushi. "Yes."

"When?"

"Uh... when I was away for my business trip."

"Interesting. How many times have you watched porn after we got married?"

"Once- no, twice."

Her face instantly filled with confusion.

"Both times were when I was away," I clarified.

"Hmm.... Surely you've seen a lot of things online, but never in real life..."

She brought her hands up to the straps of her slip and brushed them off, the fabric skimming and falling right off of her, and pooling at her waist.

"Until now," she murmured.

I didn't look back up at her, instead looking away.

Fuck-!

"Don't look away." she said softly.

But-!

"Look at me, Arnav."

Taking in a deep breath of confidence, I slowly peeked up at her, but as soon as I caught sight of her, I couldn't look away. With the candlelight illuminating around her, Khushi looked absolutely beautiful and radiant.

She looks like a goddess.

Her hair flowed down along her back, making it very easy and clear to see everything.

And I mean everything.

"Won't you touch me," Khushi murmured, bringing her face closer to mine.

I can't even get a thought process together, forget movement.

She kissed me once more and pulled me back up with her so that I was sitting up straight. As she continued to kiss me, I felt her take both of my hands in hers and place them at her waist. Khushi then slowly moved them up, and when it clicked in my head what she was going to do, my hands froze.

"Don't overthink it," she murmured against my lips.

I didn't think thinking was a possibility for me anymore. Instincts? Maybe that's what it is.

Slightly pulling away, Khushi looked into my eyes. "Do you trust me?"

I nodded in return. "Yes."

Keeping her eyes on me, she guided my hands up, and as soon as I felt her breasts, a gasp escaped from her lips. She made me cup them, and her eyes shut instantly. Personally, it was rather interesting how a simple action made her feel so much pleasure, I mean it was very visible on her face. And when she made me knead them, a moan of pleasure escaped her lips as she tossed her head back.

So... she likes this. ...should I do it again? ...I guess so?

Keeping my eyes on her, I repeated the action she made me do, and once again a moan escaped from her lips, only this time she looked back up at me.

And fucking hell, the look in her eyes-

"Mm, someone's excited," she smirked devilishly.

What-?

Only then did I realize that I had twitched, and honestly, it's becoming almost unbearable to keep it in like this!

"Shall I unleash the beast," she teased.

How is possible for her to be this devious, yet look like a goddess?

She cupped me over my joggers, into the palm of her hand, and I gave an involuntary grunt.

"Is that a yes?"

Incapable of words, I only nodded.

Placing a kiss on my forehead, Khushi reached down and slipped her hands not only under my joggers, but my boxers as well. She tugged them down and I slightly lifted myself so that she could take them off. Glancing up at her, I found her standing by the edge of the bed still holding onto my clothes.

Her négligée, however, was gone.

It must've puddled down to the floor when she stood. But when she dropped my clothes down to the floor, only then did I realize that all of her clothes were gone.

She hadn't worn anything else, no panties, nothing - she was fully nude.

And she looked absolutely stunning! I was absolutely entranced by her - so much that I didn't even realize when I had moved over to her. I was like a moth drawn to the flames, I just couldn't resist. She just looked so beautiful that... that I can't think of anything else but her. And when she caressed my cheeks within her hands, I felt nothing but peace within her embrace, closing my eyes.

"Let me pleasure you," I heard Khushi murmur.

Opening my eyes, I saw Khushi kneel down to the floor, in between my legs.

Wait, is she-?

She kissed me once more, though there was something different about this kiss. It was more teasing... more seductive. And when she pulled back and looked at me, although her expression showed that of innocence, her eyes showed the cunningness of her true intent. One of her hands trailed down along me, skimming over my chest and going down to my thigh. For a brief moment, she skimmed the top of her fingers over my thigh, then did the same thing to my inner thigh. It made me shudder slightly, which seemed to be what she wanted, given the small smirk on her face.

"May I pleasure you," she asked.

I don't think I can even answer, regardless of what questions she asks me. All I could do was gulp, trying to force away the knot that was in there.

Khushi brought her other hand down as well, bringing it to my other thigh and doing the same. She brought her face back closer to mine, her lips barely touching mine.

"Shall I pleasure you," she murmured, her lips brushing against mine as she smirked lightly.

I tried to nod so that she'd have an answer, only I felt like a knick-knack doing so.

Just as her smirk grew even more, I felt her skim her right hand up and brush it over my length. My eyes instantly squeezed shut as a small grunt left my throat.

Fuck-!

Her other hand joined in as well, making me breathe out harshly.

"Time to tame the beast."

What?

Opening my eyes, I watched as Khushi moved lower, all the while keeping her eyes on me. And even as she did, not dropping her gaze once, she placed a kiss at the tip of my length.

Fucking hell I'm going to be a goner tonight-!

As if that weren't enough, she took the tip of my length into her mouth and moved her tongue over it. While I only looked at her in shock, Khushi only looked at me innocently, as if she had a lollipop in her mouth instead!

Fuck-! "Fuck!"

My hands automatically reached out and grabbed Khushi's head as she placed me further in her mouth. Her head slowly bobbed along it, her hands joining in as well.

Fucking hell, this all feels so foreign! Sure I've seen scenes similar to this online, but seeing things online is one thing! Feeling is-! "Argh!"

My grip on her hair slightly tightened when I felt her cup my scrotum in her hand. She glanced up at me, and I must admit, seeing the look in her eyes while she had my cock in her mouth...

Fucking hell, if Khushi keeps looking at me like that, I'll burst like I'm a fucking teenager!

Still keeping her eyes on me, Khushi released my length from her mouth and used her hands to spread her saliva all over it. And while she did that, she took my scrotum int her mouth.

All of it.

Her tongue teased and played away as she sucked and moaned on them, and my grip on her hair tightened once more.

I hope she won't get mad at me for holding her like this!

Letting go of them, she put my cock back in her mouth while still looking at me.

She can't keep looking at me like this, I won't last if she does!

Now and then she would look away or close her eyes, and every now and then she would moan against me, which would send shivers all across my body. When I noticed some of her hair strands would get in the way, Khushi would quickly push it back, though it would only fall back forward, so I caught hold of it and brushed it away, keeping it back. I think I did the right thing, because she briefly pulled back and placed a kiss on the tip of my length, causing me to jerk a little.

Fuck, it's sensitive!

And it's only getting more sensitive! I can feel my body starting to build up, and it's a feeling I'm familiar with!

"Khushi...."

Khushi looked up at me but it was hard to keep my eyes open. I felt her move against me faster, as did her hands. My grip on her hair only tightened as I felt my body build even more, when suddenly Khushi grazed me slightly with her teeth, making me explode! A harsh grunt escaped from my lips and all I could hear was my heart racing in my ears, my mind completely blank. Everything was a haze a for a moment, nothing else existing, until finally, some feeling came back, and I could feel Khushi licking my cock and kissing it.

Opening my eyes, I gazed down at her, finding her nuzzling it slightly. "Looks like I've tamed the beast," she smirked, and she placed another kiss on the tip.

Her action made me jerk a little, which only made her smile. Reaching up, she kissed me as she placed her hands on my thighs. 

"How did that feel," she asked softly.

"Mind-shattering," I automatically replied.

A small giggle escaped from her lips. "Well, I'll give you one thing - you taste absolutely divine."

Wait a minute... did she... she actually....

Looking her up and down, I saw that she was totally fine. I guess she caught me looking at her because a small frown formed on her face, but I think she understood what I was looking for, quickly.

"Not a drop of cum got on me," she smirked.

Yeah, she's definitely understood.

"I swallowed every drop of it."

"What the!"

Khushi rolled her eyes. "Really, Arnav? That's what you have to say to me," she frowned.

For whatever reason, I felt my cheeks heat.

Really? After all that just happened now?

"Oh, you're such a cutie," and she kissed me once more. "Here, why don't you move back so you can rest a little?"

Oh! Well... if she insists.

Both of us moved up along the bed and laid down, Khushi laying in my arms. She laid her head on my chest and skimmed her hand along my chest. The thumping of my heart had gone down, so that was good. Even my brain was starting to work again, or at least enough to make me realize that sure, I got pleasure, but Khushi didn't.

"What are you thinking," Khushi asked softly.

It's better to be honest. "That wasn't fair."

"What do you mean," she frowned.

"That was all about me, not you. That's not fair."

A small smile took over her lips and she placed a kiss on my cheek. "Don't worry Arnav, the night has only just begun."